The way I wrote this makes it sound like what I did was illegal, or it makes me a horrible person. It wasn't illegal, I didn't do anything that could harm me, or anyone else... Actually people do this all the time. Just not me. I did something today that I wouldn't normally do, something I’m not proud of. You can be rest assured I won’t do it again. But I surprised myself, and not in a good way. I don't know why I felt the need to do it. It’s over now, and if any repercussions come I have to be prepared to take them. This isn't me. This isn't who I want to become. . That is not the kind of person I want to be. I am changing. I am learning. We have to make mistakes in order to learn from them. I don't know why I'm posting this. I guess I feel like you guys need to know that taking a gap year isn't always going to be amazing and incredible. It is going to be hard. It is going to be challenging. You are going to make mistakes. I took this year to figure myself out, and that is what I am doing. Today I learned who I don't want to be. I haven't even been here for two months and I know that the biggest challenges are yet to come. Wish me luck friends. It will be hard, but worth it.
