Still sick. Lately I have been having a hard time writing. Sometimes I go through periods where I just can’t write. And then I will have a night where I will suddenly write like crazy. I enjoy doing these posts. They are kind of like a diary I can go back and read. Sometimes, though, doing one a night is a little overwhelming. Especially recently. Now that the hype of coming here has settled down, my days are becoming more and more routine- which is something that always worries me. I expected it of course, but now that it is happening I worry that I will forget to appreciate my setting, and I will lose the adrenaline filled feeling that change always brings. Right now I want spontaneity and change. I always look towards the future for something better. Maybe someday I will find and settle into a routine that I will want to spend the rest of my life in. I don't think that I have properly gotten the ideas in my head on to the paper. I am sorry if this post made absolutely no sense.
